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Rey Skywalker ([personal profile] strongerthanblood) wrote2020-03-14 03:55 pm
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[for ben]

She can't sleep.

For hours, she's tried but something is keeping her awake, some gnawing thing that she can't seem to identify. She gets up to make tea, padding silently through her too big apartment in a pajama set that felt had like a particularly decadent purchase, a soft pink silk tank with thin straps and matching shorts.

Boy shorts, the sales woman had called them. They don't look like anything she's ever seen a boy wear, but she didn't argue. She had thought the set was pretty, and she keeps telling herself that it's okay to get something just because it was pretty. And if a part of the reason she gets it is because maybe she'd like someone else to see it someday, well, she doesn't think on it too hard.

After drinking a cup of tea and doing a little reading, she tries again to go to sleep, but it's futile. She feels too warm, stretched out on one side of the bed with a sheet draped across her legs, and she closes her eyes again to avoid staring up at the ceiling.

She feels so restless, and she allows herself to wonder what Ben is doing, if he's tossing and turning like she is. She thinks of him so often, in a multitude of ways, but right now she thinks of him fondly, wondering what he might look like when he sleeps.

Rey is so busy wondering, in fact, that she doesn't even notice when the mattress subtly dips with added weight.
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[personal profile] weakandfoolish 2020-04-06 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
"You didn't," he said, falling into step at her side. It was still strange, walking along with her. Standing side by side. Living life in each other's orbit, instead of constantly crashing together only to have her run from him.

"I can't imagine it was much of a challenge," he said, with a hint of respect. "You're a natural pilot." His lips twitched, struggling to hide a smirk. "You're almost as good a pilot as me."
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[personal profile] weakandfoolish 2020-04-10 03:02 am (UTC)(link)
The apartment was sparse, but still appeared lived in, with books stacked in various places, and a coat draped over an empty armchair.

His quarters on the Star Destroyer had been sparse, sterile. Now, he longed for something a bit more like a home.

Ducking into his bedroom, he quickly changed out of his pajamas and into a pair of black jeans and a black v-neck shirt. Taking a brief moment to run his fingers through his unruly hair, he stepped back out into the living room, glancing up at her as he bent to tie his boots.

"You'll have to teach me to drive," he decided. "Then we'll race."
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[personal profile] weakandfoolish 2020-04-15 02:17 am (UTC)(link)
Ben looked down at himself, his mouth twitching faintly at the corner. "It's easier. You have fewer choices to make, if you wear all one color."

At her challenge, he huffed out a breath of laughter. "You can try."

With his boots tied, he rose to his feet, meeting her by the door. She looked up at him, and even if he hadn't been able to read the uncertainty etched across her face, he could feel it, twisting within his own chest as if it were his own.

"I'm here, aren't I?"